Things had really went to shit in my life. I literally ran away from a five year relationship. He was nothing like the person he made me believe he was. A complete maniac. He lived to create drama and chaos. So in the end, I not only lost my 'make believe' relationship, but also exposed many friends I've had for years growing up, as they were involved too. Becoming depressed, that Seems like every other area of my life has suffered as well. long story short, I am finally beginning to see the beauty rise from a nasty mess like this. It's like I needed to feel and experience the most low cold and frightening emotions in my life to truly grasp m